Juliana, also known as Juka, is a very powerful woman in this world and is very very beloved worldwide. She is a strong advocate for social justice and has been a vocal force in the fight against inequality. She has been devoted to making a difference in people’s lives and has been successful in her endeavors. Her inspiring story has been shared around the world, inspiring many to strive for a better future. Her original art, as well as her influence on human rights projects in Albania, make her a role model for many. Despite this, she was always attempting not to answer questions regarding her past, which caused some confusion, but she is now ready to speak.
Having struggled with her health since she was 17, she opens up about how it worsened when she turned 19. When it comes to these themes, she gets very emotional, saying that “sometimes even professionals will think you are crazy and you will endure the pain in silence and fear”. “I lost a friend group at 17 because of a misunderstanding that belonged to someone else. That really damaged me and I didn’t know it would impact me so deeply. When I started crying, I felt like I was suddenly all alone. This is because I always spread love when I’m friends with someone, so it’s hard for my brain to be put down. Unfairness bothers me.” During this time, she developed anxiety. Because she already had family and financial issues, she was constantly changing her plans in order to escape the problem. Added to what she said, she stated, “first there was a chronic cough for a year and then my dad had brain surgery and my body became so triggered that I started feeling other symptoms, fear, and pain filled my spirit.”
In her statement, she said her situation became so unbearable that she could not get out as much as she wanted and had to completely isolate herself. As a result, she lost friends and hobbies, leading to agoraphobia. “I couldn’t go out as much as I wanted; I was lightheaded as I was getting ready, but again, no one took my health seriously, and eventually I began doubting my own sensations; I started thinking that I might be crazy. It took me 2 years to enter a grocery store and feel normal outside of the house. Before that, I would feel lightheaded even in the elevator, it had become a habit of my brain, a toxic coping mechanism” Since she has dealt with hardships in her life that are not small, it was not easy for her. “I already had problems, and anxiety, so having my health limit my life was like a curse,” she said. The symptoms that she experienced not only restricted her access to living her life but also caused more problems for her. “Some of the usual problems I experienced were depersonalization, dizziness, heart-chest pain, eyes-vertigo, muscle spasms, tingles, and head rashes. I would be so moody after those symptoms because they were sudden” and she added “but I hated not feeling grounded, it was like everything was fake, like nothing made sense, and my neurologist disclosed this was due to severe anxiety, which is true, and i knew its root was because I couldn’t make myself capable of talking about that pain, so I never had the support and affection to understand the shock that my health brought me, so I created more problems.” She explained, “I have endured pain in every part of my body, and I always say that I am strong because I wanted to quit but my body denied that, so I continued. My breathing issues went on for almost a year, my cough went on for almost a year, and I had stomach pain and esophagus pain, back pain, knee pain, muscle pain, heart pain, earache, headache, eye pain, throat pain, basically all of them. Wherever you touch me, I have a story to tell.”
The issue was emotional rather than mental, she said. “While my logic and strength were working, my spirit was tired, which limited my access to the outside world. I noticed how emotional it was when I received affection, and how I would sleep like a baby when someone touched me and made me believe that I was strong.” “It’s a shame we aren’t taught how to manage and express our emotions. I wasn’t able to express what was happening and I was traumatized by my own silence.”
According to her, she met with a lot of doctors and none were able to provide an answer to the problem. All blamed her anxiety without clarifying that there is a disorder associated with her emotional pain. ” I met with several doctors. I spoke to my cardiologist a lot, telling him something was wrong. He told me one of my valves was fat, but that everything is fine and I shouldn’t carry excess weight. However, it was all good. I met with pathologists who suggested it might be thyroid or anxiety. My anxiety left me in the ER 3 times, but it turns out I had an emotional episode and I couldn’t handle it. I saw a neurologist who actually listened to me, she told me it was mostly anxiety and that an MRI wasn’t needed since my physical tests were perfect, she had me take some blood tests, I had some vitamin deficiencies but we fixed those, but the pain still persisted, she told me to do yoga, pilates, and psychotherapy because my condition indicates that I am wounded in my spirit instead of my body.” I began accepting my fate after that.
As a young woman, I started TAP and told myself I would take a year off to take care of my health. Well, it took three years.” Juliana is a powerful woman, and nobody should mess with her. When I realized that even my own people were uneducated about my issue and unwilling to learn about it, i accepted that nobody could help me but me. This journey was so challenging, but it taught me how to rely on myself and how to wisely use universal tools like exercise, music, frequencies, meditation etc. I always cry about this, i m still not over it.” She stated that psychotherapy helped her a lot but her first experiences were disappointing “The thing i didn’t like with some of them was that they would be surprised by my awareness and suggest me to study psychology when this happened i was feeling confused because my obvious problem was my emotions and my hyper self-awareness.” She explained that the therapist job is to make you feel understood but also to notice the way you flaws and give you empathy and explanations, “one of them told me to do an IQ test saying that probably this is happening because im just too smart, she thought this was a compliment, i had health anxiety and psychosomatic how my IQ is connected with my suffering?”
You’re right, Juliana, we agree. However, we haven’t gotten over your 300 IQ yet.
Toward the end of the interview, she stated: “There are many mental issues, and a lot of tough tastes. However, it is only through your soul that you will be heard. It takes time, but it is well worth it.”